On January 18 it was a year since we found out I had a mass in my brain. At the time we had no idea what that would mean or what the path would be like. In some ways it is difficult because a year later we are in the same place, looking into a new year without knowing what is before us. I did hear from my Medical Oncologist last weekend because he wanted to see how I was doing. I am truly thankful for the care and compassion we receive from my Medical team.
Since writing the above we have met with my surgeon and I have been scheduled for another brain biopsy surgery on Monday, January 27th to determine what we are seeing in this new area. We have spent the past couple of days preparing for the surgery. Honestly, I do not want to do this again. However, I cannot effectively be treated without knowing what is going on and waiting it out and delaying surgery isn't the best option either. This time I know what to expect which in some ways makes it easier but more difficult at the same time. I'm thankful to know this surgery will not be as long or as deep as the first. I will have an MRI before the surgery and if there is improvement from the steroid treatment and they can determine the symptoms I am experiencing are treatment related they will cancel the surgery. I told Josh at the beginning of the year that I did not want to do another surgery but then I felt as if God was preparing my heart. Gently reminding me to trust Him even if it is not the path I want. Here I am on the path I do not want to be on but how thankful I am for the peace I am experiencing. I am not walking this path alone and I am not afraid. This verse has been brought to my attention several times this week:
I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33 NLT)
Hopefully, this encourages you as much as it does me.
Many Blessings to you all and thank you for continuing to pray. This is difficult for the whole family and your compassion and support is a gift to us.