Who am I? I am a wife, mother, daughter, sister, and friend. I am a sinner, forgiven, a precious Child of God.

For the first time in a long time, I have had a lot of time. I have had time to read God's Word, pray, and rest in the Lord's Presence without distractions. It is easy in life to lose sight of what is most important which is our relationship with God. However, He is right here waiting for us! This Easter, I have great hope because while my body is fighting for life, I know my soul is secure because of Jesus dying for me and my sins! He laid down His life for all of our sins. He loves us so much and because of His sacrifice I have life that cannot be taken away! I rest in the fact that there is more than life here on earth. We all have a choice to make. I chose a long time ago to ask for God's forgiveness and believe in Jesus but this trial has brought me closer to The Lord. When I first received my diagnosis I felt distant from God. I had been trying to do life on my own by living in my own strength. I was not putting God first and I was exhausted, overwhelmed, anxious, and uncertain. It doesn't matter how far we have pulled away or what we have done because Our Father is waiting for us. All we have to do is turn to Him and ask. I prayed that day for forgiveness for again trying to do life on my own. I was not putting God first. I prayed for God to use me during this time in my life. I prayed for His peace and His strength. That no matter what, I would honor Him and that if He chooses to do a miracle and heal me here on earth, that He will get the glory! In the end what matters most is our relationship with Him. Whether we choose to accept Him or reject Him.

I'm thankful for the promise of eternity in Heaven because God will wipe every tear from our eyes, that there will be no more death or sorrow or crying or pain. All these things are gone forever! (Revelation 21:4) What comfort this gives! To know that life here is not all there is! Josh and I have experienced a lot of tears, sorrow, and pain over the years but there have also been days of laughter, joy, and hope. God has been with us through every trial and right now I know He is with us and we will trust Him!

Faith Brings Joy!

Therefore, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us. Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory. We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love. When we were utterly helpless, Christ came at just the right time and died for us sinners. Now, most people would not be willing to die for an upright person, though someone might perhaps be willing to die for a person who is especially good. But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners. And since we have been made right in God’s sight by the blood of Christ, he will certainly save us from God’s condemnation. For since our friendship with God was restored by the death of his Son while we were still his enemies, we will certainly be saved through the life of his Son. So now we can rejoice in our wonderful new relationship with God because our Lord Jesus Christ has made us friends of God. (Romans 5:1-11 NLT)