Single Digits

Thank you for praying for me this past week. I have improved since being on the steroids. I have not had anymore migraines and the dizziness has subsided. I am still having difficulty with my left side and have since given into my stubbornness and now sometimes use a cane for balance. After treatment ends these other symptoms should improve within a couple of months. I am so thankful for all the help I've been given from family and friends as certain tasks are difficult to complete right now. I have 8 more radiation treatments to complete and I'm excited to be in the single digits of the countdown! My labs looked much better today. Last week my counts were low but have all gone up! This was encouraging and I'm thankful God continues to protect me. I have continued to lose weight but I have been able to eat better this week and hopefully will see some improvement there as well. As for my hair, I have been losing it gradually the past couple of weeks but only where the radiation is being done. The chemo that I am taking does not cause hair loss and so my hair doesn't look too bad. Allison, my sweet sister in law is going to give me a beautiful new cut when I am feeling up to it only this time she will not need to thin my usually very thick hair!

This weekend was wonderful! I was able to rest well and spend time with my family. I was able to find strength by appreciating the quiet moments of the weekend. Before I was diagnosed with cancer I was always busy and planning ahead. I would rush from one thing to the next and I always felt completely overwhelmed with all that I had to do. I felt like I was failing and sometimes I didn't want to face another day. I was not enjoying the life God had given to me. I have found in the past couple of months that I'm quiet and more aware of cherishing the time I am given. Our lives are a gift and everyday is full of things to be thankful for. I think now, I'm just more aware and I'm not taking the time I'm given for granted. I pay attention more to my family, my friends, and those around me. I take in the beauty of creation and I recognize God's power and find peace in His strength. We think we have so much time to do all that we have planned and that tomorrow will always be here but then we miss out on living for today. Everyday is full of uncertainty and if we focus on that we lose our peace. I'm learning to trust God moment by moment. He is the one who knows all things and can be trusted even in the darkest times of our lives. Praise the Lord; praise God our savior! For each day he carries us in his arms. (Psalms 68:19 NLT)